Please listen to this (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9XeOrZ-W3s) whilst reading. It should make more sense then.
Notes: Lame ending is lame. Just... okay I was reading all of the marchingstuck stuff all over again AND THEN I FOUND THE TUMBLR and I remembered that John could play the piano in this AU and this damn song came on my iTunes, and just imagine that it is John playing it, ok? shut up it's midnight I have no real excuses. Also, title comes from a mis-remembered line of Billie Holiday. Three guess as to the song.